Ok, now I can talk.  LOL.

So about the last entry... the dream I was talking about was the dream God gave me last summer or something about my husband proposing to me.  I won't go into all the symbolism of the dream, but at the end it showed me, him, Caleb, Mallory, my mom, and Mallory's mom in a yard at a picnic.  There were other people there, I felt them, but I only remember those 6.  So he grabbed my hand under the picnic table and slipped the ring on and I started crying because I was so happy and blah blah blah.  Later, Caleb, Mallory, him and I sat in a barn watching some Disney movie.  Caleb and Mallory were engaged or married or, as my mom would say, connected.  So that's where the dream stopped, and I woke up.  So I've always wondered, whose barn was it?  Why were we in the loft of the barn instead of inside?  Whose yard were we in?  Well, I still wonder most of those questions except whose house/yard/barn we were in.  It was Mallory's.  As I said last night, God opened my eyes so I could recognize the barn and the yard as Mallory's.

So I told my mom about all my dreams about my future husband(4, in all), and I asked her if she thought it was wrong for me to get these dreams when other people didn't.  She said no, that God is setting me up so that its not a surprise and so I know that He has my steps orchestrated.  I also told her about my dream to have a fairy tale kind of romance.  I always expected that I would not have anything like what I read in the Christian Romance books, like the Christy Miller series and the Glenbrooke series.  I always thought, well, that's nice for reading, but this is the real world.  Nothing is going to happen like that.  But then tonight it occured to me: God is orchestrating my fairy tale.  Only, instead of it being all drawn out in real life, with doubts and fears and thoughts of does he love me as much as I love him?, He is creating my own kind of romance and hope by using the gifts He has given me.  I never knew God was so creative.  He is so amazing.  So completely amazing.